I keep trying...

[yonkyu]

Everyone keeps telling to write. That the more I write the better I will get. And to read everything I write out loud because it will help make my story flow well guess what. I have to agree it helps but I still suck. I don't have a voice any form of voice but expressing the emotions of my characters. Guess what? That's only part of writing a story. There's so many more elements to work in and I doubt I'll make it realistic. Even it my characters are based off a TV show. Yet I should be happy with hits and kudos but guess what? I'm not. It shows me what people DONT want to read. When everyone else gets thousands of hits kudos and comments. I get NOTHING. I'll keep writing but I can't stand being told I'm getting better when no one can specify how I'm improving. It's so hard and something I'll struggle with till the day I die. I can't write o e scene at the beginning then another at the end. I just can't seem to do it. I know drafts are rough and a mess then you clean it up to make it stand out and guess what never going to happen. I read my stories and I like them and I'm just pushed to the side for a better writer. Whatever. It's never going to change. For once I would love feedback that's helpful to me in improving . Only to keep writing. I know writing is hard but I feel my grammar is my fear of never understanding the elements and points to writing a story. Kudos to me is I read it or thanks for a sharing the story felt it was worth the time to take a chance on it. Whatever I'm only improving one step forward five steps back. At least it's how I feel about things. So I keep writing and putting the words down and do my best to make it flow without repetition and to make reminders throughout fic. Not every paragraph. I keep trying new things. Write small and even that's a struggle. And I'll never be the student to make progress.

Comments

[alexisjane.livejournal.com]

Practical help...if you want concrit, I can give it...you won't like it but it might help : )

First of all, if you're not enjoying what you're writing, no one else will either. Sure, it can be hard, and challenging, and frustrating at times but you have to love the story you're telling. Also, if you're writing anything to get a pat on the back, forget it. Coz even if you get it, there will always be someone doing better than you to resent, or one bad comment that will ruin your year regardless of how many nice things people say. A good piece of advice is to write your story with one reader in mind. When I'm writing the thing I'm working on at the moment, I write it for Milly_gal. I know lots of other people will read it but I write it with her in mind, and I even send her the chapters right after I'm done. Focusing that way helps be stay consistant.

You talk a lot about elements of the story, and grammar, and technical stuff, but when you're writing the story down that shit doesn't matter one bit. Write the story. Let the idea flow out of your head onto the page. Once you've done that, then you make it so other people can read it and understand what you're talking about. Writing is communication. Once the story exists, then you get to mold it into something that other people can understand. Like the man said "Don't tell me the moon is full, let me see a beam of moonlight glinting off the broken glass." Or something like that anyway. When you write the first draft it's okay to say the moon is full, but you better damn well go back and fix it. The thing I'm working on now...I've done six drafts, just about to start number seven...because writing is easy. Editing is hard. You have to learn to love it, because it's part of the process.

If you want, I'd be happy to work with you on a short thing, maybe 500 words that we could go over critically a few times. I'm not the greatest writer, technically or otherwise, but maybe I can help a little bit xx

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

Any help is welcomed. I know I shouldn't focus on the technical elements of the story, but it was mentioned to me numerous times during a writing class I took for 5 weeks.

I don't think I'll ever like the negative or not so good feedback. But it's to help me get better and I try to believe that I will. So I keep trying no matter what.

The idea of writing for Milly_gal for you seems like a good idea. Right now I write for myself which is probably not the best way to go about it. I've learned most writers write multiple drafts until it's complete. This step is new to me, I know it sounds weird, but I really never understood the editing process and it shows in most of my writing.

You are an amazing writer and now you write an original series...that's amazing!!!!

But...if you are willing to hep me, I would love it, though I don't want to take you away from your current story. Your work is important too!

Thanks for the blunt heart comment. I appreciate it!!