I keep trying...

[yonkyu]

Everyone keeps telling to write. That the more I write the better I will get. And to read everything I write out loud because it will help make my story flow well guess what. I have to agree it helps but I still suck. I don't have a voice any form of voice but expressing the emotions of my characters. Guess what? That's only part of writing a story. There's so many more elements to work in and I doubt I'll make it realistic. Even it my characters are based off a TV show. Yet I should be happy with hits and kudos but guess what? I'm not. It shows me what people DONT want to read. When everyone else gets thousands of hits kudos and comments. I get NOTHING. I'll keep writing but I can't stand being told I'm getting better when no one can specify how I'm improving. It's so hard and something I'll struggle with till the day I die. I can't write o e scene at the beginning then another at the end. I just can't seem to do it. I know drafts are rough and a mess then you clean it up to make it stand out and guess what never going to happen. I read my stories and I like them and I'm just pushed to the side for a better writer. Whatever. It's never going to change. For once I would love feedback that's helpful to me in improving . Only to keep writing. I know writing is hard but I feel my grammar is my fear of never understanding the elements and points to writing a story. Kudos to me is I read it or thanks for a sharing the story felt it was worth the time to take a chance on it. Whatever I'm only improving one step forward five steps back. At least it's how I feel about things. So I keep writing and putting the words down and do my best to make it flow without repetition and to make reminders throughout fic. Not every paragraph. I keep trying new things. Write small and even that's a struggle. And I'll never be the student to make progress.

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[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

I am reading more. I started a new book that has a similar feel to Harry Potter but with a science fiction twist to it. And I've read a few books again as well for a better feel of storytelling.

It's going to take time, my own way to make accomplishments in writing and storytelling.

[siennavie.livejournal.com]

It takes time for sure, to improve and to see change. It's not always so obvious in small increments of time. It's like looking at yourself in a mirror every day versus comparing yourself to a photograph 5 years ago :P A lot of changes happen subtly.

Or it could be that you just need that one person who gives you the lightbulb moment. They explain things in such a way that something confusing becomes crystal clear. For my job training this summer, we had 4 different people show us their process, and I remember one student going, "Oh, I understand that now!," with the final teacher. Repetition also likely helped.

That book sounds cool. I feel like reading is a good way to learn without feeling like you're learning! By just reading, our brains become more familiar and comfortable with new words and how words are used, what sounds right, what sounds good.

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the kind words, support, and encouragement. Since April I've felt like I was in a bad place with my writing. And all I saw was negativity and it was bringing me down.

I have a few people that have been helping me and have SEEN the changes, I don't see them, but a little goes a long way. I'm going to keep trying and JUST WRITE. Get the ideas out on paper and read it out loud ALL the TIME.

Thank you again!!