Finding Love through Nature - Chapter 5

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CHAPTER FIVE

Jensen – POV

Jensen wakes up at 4:30 AM because he needs his morning cup of coffee before heading to the airport with Jared and Chris.  Jensen has never been a morning person and being with Jared, Jensen doesn’t want to miss anything.

 Then there is the fact that he is falling for his best friend.  Jensen is scared shitless because when he stops to think about it, it’s always been there hidden by his feelings for Danni.  Once Danni was out of the picture and Jared started to help and support Jensen through it all, the feelings for Jared increased over time.

Jensen checks his suitcase while waiting for Jared and Chris to arrive.  Jensen mentally goes through his list and breathes out a sigh of relief that he has everything he needs.

Jensen chooses to wear jeans and a T-shirt because he needs to be comfortable while on the plane.  He hates to fly ever since that Chicago flight dropped the oxygen masks and descended quickly.  Jensen was close to a nervous breakdown and was alone on the flight.

Jensen thought long and hard last night while packing about his feelings towards Jared.  He is not afraid to be with Jared in any form or way, just afraid at what everyone’s reaction will be when he finds a way to tell them.  Jensen knows in some way how Jared felt about telling Jensen that he was gay and Jensen stood by him.  Jensen watched Jared date a few men over the last few years.  Jensen was honored to watch Jared tell Ellen DeGeneres and People Magazine that he was gay and happy with his life in Hollywood and as an actor.  The fans were excited and happy to support Jared coming out and continued to watch Supernatural.

Jensen hopes that this trip will help him grow closer to Jared and for him to express to Jared how he is falling in love with his best friend.  Jensen has discovered the secret of what he has been missing all along in his life.

Jensen blushes slightly thinking about Jared and wondering how obvious he has been towards Jared.  Jensen’s dark secret of falling in love with his best friend must be written all over his face.  Jensen wouldn’t be surprised that Jared already knows how Jensen feels about him.  Neither man willing to tell the other until it’s the right time to share.

Jensen hears the doorbell to his apartment and curses because Jared told him Chris was going to honk when they arrive at the house.  Shit! He can’t believe Jared had to get out of the car to get him.

“Jen, are you coming?” Jared shouts through the door.

Jensen goes to open the door and finds Jared smiling ear to ear with a knowing smirk that goes right through Jensen.

“Yes, I’m coming, I got side tracked.  Ready to go.”

“Good, so am I, so let’s go.”

Jensen nods his head towards Jared and Jared picks up Jensen’s suitcase as they head towards the door.  Jensen throws his duffle bag over his right shoulder and follows Jared out to Chris’s SUV.  Jared and Jensen load the luggage into the trunk and get into the backseat.  Chris waits for them to adjust in their seats before he pulls out onto the road and heads towards the airport.

They arrive at the airport and make it through security by 7:15 AM.  Together, they have plenty of time to grab something to eat and drink at their gate, while waiting for their plane to arrive.

They sit in the chairs touching from thighs to shoulders.  Jensen can feel the heat radiate from Jared and relaxes into his seat with him by his side.

Together they watch as the plane arrives at the gate.  They watch the night crew come off the plane to their final destination.  They wait patiently for the morning crew and pilot to arrive at the gate to board their plane to head off to their destination of Maine.

Jared – POV

Jared’s excitement kicks in full gear of wanting to board the airplane before they are able to.

Jared turns to Jensen and notices that Jensen is trembling slightly in his seat.

“Jen, are you okay?”

“Jared, the nerves are kicking in.”

“Jen, it’ll be okay.  Take deep breaths and relax.  I’ll be there with you.”

“Thanks.”

After taking a few short deep breaths to calm his nerves, Jensen starts to relax just in time to board the plane to Jared’s relief.  However, Jensen continues to tremble and take deep breaths while they wait in line.  Jared laces his fingers through Jensen’s and squeezes in an effort to reassure him everything will be fine.

Smiling, Jensen leans into him and whispers in his ear, “Thank you.”

Jared keeps a tight hold on Jensen’s hand as they walk through the covered maze from the terminal to the plane.  Once they find their seats, Jared finally let’s go so he can stow his carry-on bag in the overhead compartment before taking the seat by the window.  Jensen follows suit and sits next to him, making sure to buckle his seatbelt.

With some hesitancy to his movement, Jensen slowly reaches his hand over to lace his fingers with Jared’s again.  However, once he’s done it, there’s no shame or embarrassment.  Looking more calm and collected, he relaxes into his seat, leaning into Jared.

Gazing out the window to hide his smile, Jared gently squeezes Jensen’s hand to express everything he wishes he could say aloud but can’t yet.  His heart is racing in his chest.  It’s a priceless moment for Jared when Jensen squeezes his hand in return.

The plane takes off and Jensen falls asleep contently holding Jared’s hand.  Happy, Jared watches Jensen while he sleeps throughout the entire plane ride.  Jared stops breathing when Jensen’s head turns and lands on his shoulder.  He can feel Jensen’s soft, easy breaths and loose fingers in his hand.  Jared is considering the raw, intimacy between them that Jared is unsure of how he should feel.

They arrive on time in Portland, Maine, and Jensen wakes as the plane is taxiing in.  Jensen notices that his head is resting on Jared’s shoulder and raises it with a smile.

“How did you sleep, Jen?”

“Like a baby.  Thank you, Jared.  It helped.” Jensen says.

“I’m glad.”  Jared states as he smiles with his dimples.

The plane gets to the gate and the passengers exit the plane.  Jared and Jensen grab their belongings and head to baggage claim to get the rest of their things.

Jared walks towards the shuttle area, to find their blue and green shuttle van.  This van will take them to Black Point Inn, right on the coast of Casco Bay.

Jensen – POV

The shuttle van arrives at Black Point Inn - A historic, grand hotel, with a lush landscape, bay views, and majestic cliffs with ever changing seascapes.  The inn has a white trim with various shades of blues and grays, to give it a historic feel to it.

They grab their belongings from the van and Jensen tips the driver.  They walk along a historic red brick path to the main entrance.  Once inside Jensen and Jared enter the lobby, which is set in a historic atmosphere as well.  Dark oak panels and beams with cream painted walls create the lobby with a brick fireplace that’s built into the wooden wall between the wooden beams.  Red and gold rugs with a simple pattern cover the dark wood flooring of the lobby.  Simple oval sconces for lighting that give it a homey feeling of comfort and relaxation.

Together they walk up to the concierge desk to find out their room assignment.  The concierge hands Jared the room key with the room number on it.  Room 24.  The concierge gives Jensen a map of the inn and how to get to their room.

“Follow to the end of the lobby.  Exit the doors in front of you and head towards the right.  Its right on the end, you can’t miss it.”

“Thank you.” Jensen states as he follows Jared through the rest of the lobby.

Jensen meets up with Jared as they arrive at their room.  Jared pushes the key into the key hole to open the door.  Jensen and Jared both gasp as they enter their room to the suite overlooking the bay from their private deck.

The room has an extra-large king size bed on the right hand side of the room with an end table on either side of the bed.  The same amazing oak wood flooring with a lighter color to it.  A wardrobe in the left corner of the room between the two amazing large bay windows.   Sitting under the bay window in front of them are two ocean blue bedroom chairs with a small round table in the middle.  In the right corner of the room is a standing lamp next to the walk in closet to put their belongings in.

Jensen places his bag on the ground with a loud thump.  It didn’t register that Jared only got one bed for them.  Jensen is amazed at how Jared can read him so well.  Jensen has wanted to share with Jared about his realization of being a closeted bisexual man.  It warms Jensen’s heart that there is only one bed because it’s time to start their future together.  Jensen isn’t completely sure how he really feels about that and hopes his family and friends will accept him for who he is and who he loves.

Walking to the window, Jared peers out over the bay.  The waves roll and crash against the cliff wall as the sun shines brightly in late the afternoon sky.  Stepping up behind him, Jensen places his chin on Jared’s shoulder and wraps his arms around his waist.  He can practically feel the barely contained excitement vibrating through his friend.

 “Thanks, Jared, for all of this.” Jensen enthusiastically states.

“You’re welcome, Jen. You deserve it.  We both deserve it.” Jared says, placing his hands on top of Jensen’s and squeezing tight.

Jared leans into Jensen’s embrace and feels the heat of his blush rush to his cheeks.  Jensen is overwhelmed by embracing his best friend from behind by seeing Jared’s face open up like a book, releasing emotion.  Jensen feels comfortable in this moment, at recognizing the emotions Jared is letting him see without expressing words.

Jensen feels a rush of warmth spread to his heart, realizing he has already rediscovered love, in an unexpected place which is uncharted, new territory for him.  Jensen is proud of himself for expressing small hints of his feelings towards Jared that he isn’t sure he can keep inside any longer.  He imagines turning Jared so he can kiss him on the corner of his mouth.  The thought sparks an electrical shock through his body.  It sends a shiver through him while still embracing Jared up in his strong, muscular arms.

“Jensen, I would love to stay here all night long, but it’s getting late.  Let’s head to the restaurant for dinner.”

“Sounds good to me Jared.  Ummm, yeah, me too.” Jensen sighs not ready to admit the feelings he has when it comes to Jared.

Unwrapping his arms from Jared, Jensen steps back.  He follows Jared to the restaurant that sits in the back of the inn.

The restaurant has the same feeling as the lobby.  Dark oak panels and beams with cream paint colored walls.  Oval sconce lighting and red and gold rug patterns the floor of the restaurant.

Jensen enters the restaurant and tells the host, “Two, please.”

The host grabs some menus and shows them to their table.  The table has a red tablecloth on it with gold trim, gold napkins, wine glasses and silverware.  The table is near a large rectangle window that shows the wonderful view of Casco Bay.

Jensen and Jared take their seats and order two beers.  Together they pick up their menus and scan through them to see what looks good to satisfy the hunger running through the growling their bellies make in unison.

Jensen and Jared both order an 8 ounce steak with mashed potatoes and broccoli.

Simply happy to be together, they eat their meal in near silence, communicating with their eyes and facial expressions.  The waitress comes to clear the table to leave the bill.  Jared picks up the check and pays it and Jared gestures to Jensen to head back up to their room.

Jensen and Jared collapse on the large bed, fully clothed, and fall asleep to the calm and easy breathing of one another.

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Jensen wakes up with the feel of Jared spooned up behind him, arm around his waist, and a leg between his.  Jensen can feel Jared’s morning wood and tenses because it feels so good to be wrapped up in Jared’s arm and body.  It’s as if Jensen is finally home where he is meant to be.  Jensen is so afraid it will change things between them even though deep down in his heart he knows that Jared feels the same way towards him.

Jensen lays awake listening to the steady beat of Jared’s heart and easy breathing.  He wonders what Jared will say when he stirs awake.  Jensen feels the intimacy between them in this moment and wonders what being in a relationship with Jared would be like.

Jensen can tell the moment Jared wakes up, he keeps his position and easy breathing, not to break this beautiful moment with him.  He realizes he isn’t freaking out with Jared’s hard cock up against his ass despite all the layers each of them have on. Jensen admits he wants this, he wants this with Jared so much that his heart aches for it.  He knows how well they can be together and how happy they will be once he puts the broken walls down.  Jensen senses the change in Jared breathing and asks shakily.

“Are you awake?”

“Yeah, Jen, I’m awake.”

“What are we doing today?”

“We are going on a Beer tour today at 2 PM.”

“Sounds like a plan.”

“Jen, are we going to talk about it?”

“Talk about what? I’m fine, so comfortable and relaxed.”

“I’m glad.” Jared says.

Jensen’s breathing picks up and tries his best to hide it.  It is very difficult to hide when Jared’s arm is around his waist and his morning wood just grazes Jared’s wrist.  God, Jensen wants to shift to feel the electric shock that will send a shiver through Jensen’s body with Jared’s arm on his waist and Jared’s leg in-between his.  Jensen can feel Jared shift slightly and Jensen’s cock brushes against Jared’s arm around his waist and takes a sharp gasp that proves, he wants Jared more than he knows or wants to admit to himself.

Jared freezes at the sound.  Jensen can feel Jared’s pulse increasing and while he’s flattered that he does that to Jared, he’s not ready to deal with it.

“Jared, I’m going to take a shower.  We should head down for brunch.”

“Sounds like a plan.” Jared whispers, sounding slightly hurt.

Jensen gets up slowly, without looking at Jared, grabs his clothes and heads to the bathroom.  He turns on the shower and sets it on the highest setting and quickly scrubs the negative thoughts that want to enter his mind.  He lets the water hit his back to release the tightness in his muscles.  Jensen absent-mindedly takes his right hand and wraps it around his aching throbbing dick.  He squeezes his member with enough pressure and sets a steady rhythm of pumping his cock.  When he reaches the head he adds a twist and flick of his wrist.  Jensen increases the speed of his hand and a few more strokes with a twist and he is coming with “Jared” on his lips.

Jensen steadies himself in the shower and quickly finishes up.  He dries himself with a towel.  Looking at his reflection in the mirror, he stares himself down.  There’s no denying what he sees.  His emotions are clearly written on his face.  He is in love with Jared.  He admits it to himself, under his breath.  Then he acknowledges it aloud, “I am in love with my best friend and I’m bisexual.”  Jensen watches the tension leave his body from admitting to himself who he truly is and coming to terms with how he feels about himself.  He knows what and how he feels towards the other man.  He needs to tell Jared and follow his heart without hesitation for the first time in his life.

Chapter 6