I'm a Failure!!

[yonkyu]

Well its sadly official...but after a few months of an up and down roller coaster of emotions. I am a failure...at least that is what I am made to feel like anyway.

I work with toddlers and I been in the field of early childhood education for 13 years. Anyway there is this child who is very aggressive towards the other children and teachers, and some how its blamed on ME. Where I work we have what is known and a primary caregiver for so many children and this children is my primary. I have shared my concerns with the right people and nobody seems to help or find out different ways to support this child. Now I am just waiting to be written up for the incident that happened tonight when I get looks of "why the f... didn't you stop the child." "what were YOU doing for the child to do this..." And so forth. Its been an ongoing battle since the beginning of May and still nothing has changed. Just the blame is put on me whether stated out loud or not :/ Go ME!!!!!!

While I am trying to finish my last week of homework and re-reading my story to finish editing. We will see how all of that will go. :/

I keep trying. :/ despite it all...

Comments

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the kind and supportive words. This child has had challenging and aggressive behavior since March and I have done everything I can for him in a nutshell. I even followed my Boss's orders and commands, but still his aggression continues to increase. The parent is following through with most of the recommendations from the school, but not all, so its frustrating. The child hits, pushes, kicks, pulls children down, and bites that can break the skin open. And I even shared my concerns of it getting worse, it just goes in one ear and out the other. And I get looks, comments, and attitude of why is he still doing all of this; which speaks to me that I am a fault. I am proud of all the hard work, long hours, and guidance I have offered to this child and family. :)