Writing - School

[yonkyu]

Well I'm in my sixth class in my Master's Degree Program and I've been doing a great job. I hate to put anything in someone's face or be con-seeded in any means, but I have been doing really well. 5 Classes taken and received an A in each class. Currently in my sixth class and currently have an A, but that can always change. I work really hard to achieve the grades I have worked hard for and earned. Though APA style is kicking my butt and driving my life crazy. There are so many rules to follow and I'm trying my best to make sure I follow them with accuracy. :/

My last paper I just got back my professor commented on the use of commas and semi-colons. I should read up on that before my next paper. And now my grammar is being picked a part - along with my in-text citations. I know its to help me in the long run but I feel I will never accomplish it. It brings me down (makes me cry) and I try so hard to give the professor the assignment they are asking and looking for. I will never give up but feel like all I can focus on is SCHOOL. I work 40 hours a week and come home and do homework for the rest of the time. I still need a time during this time to keep me sane.

It just makes me really wonder about my writing skills. Oh! I know, NEEDS HELP!!!! I complete makeover. In my school papers I need to remember to spell out all words and not to use slang language. Not that I do but still I need to write in a formal manner and I try my best and to cite in APA style appropriately. It is hard and now I have to work extra hours to make sure my assignments meet all standards before sending it in. I probably should really think about taking a grammar class because I feel like I have no clue on basic grammar. I love the comments and boost to make my next paper even better and I will always strive for this. I had to email my professor and re-send her an assignment, claiming I never completed it, which I did. I explained that the word document had 2 pages and the part she was looking for was on the second page. I sent the document in 2 different ways for her to get it that I did complete the assignment.

Trust me - who will want to read this again. Who wants to hear me complain about WRITING. LOL. Not many will. I don't blame them to be honest.

Anyway, it makes me wonder why should I continue writing in Fandom. I know my stories need lots of work and the stories don't seem to catch a readers eye. I wrote a story for a secret Santa challenge and my giftee liked it. No one knows how it felt that she liked it, truly liked it and thanked me for writing it for her. I have to say, I'm damn fucking proud of this story. The emotional ride I went through pushed me to complete it and write the story I wanted to share. I'm really nervous about writing and sharing more stories for Fandom. I really do enjoy it, but I have so much to learn. I'm excited to work on my newest story and I hope it goes well. I'm not sure I will be able to pull it off but willing to take chances and risks. I know people have told me to 'keep on writing' and to 'practice practice practice' but its hard when you have no natural talent or the ability of creative expression. Anyway now that the tears have dried I will always continue to strive to do better and achieve my goals.

Comments

[cillab42.livejournal.com]

My stories don't get a lot of feedback either, but keep plodding along hoping that it will make me better. As long as you like what you write, then sometimes it's all the love you need.

I also think that you get more readers than you think, it's just that not everyone comments.

[siennavie.livejournal.com]

Keep writing as long as you find satisfaction in it.

Also, I think a grammar class is worth a try. A structured environment with consistent practice and feedback might help you overcome some of the frustration you're feeling and build your confidence.

[majestic-duxk.livejournal.com]

Writing is hard. You put yourself out there, and people just don't read. or maybe they don't respond.

I find lj pretty much dead in terms of comments, which I find pretty hard - this is supposed to be where we interact and do things! And I make efforts to comment on most of what I read. The problem is, the head talk goes like this:

- I comment on most of what I read
- Everyone else must as well
- But no one comments on mine
- So either they hate it, or they don't read it.

which is terrible, terrible way to feel! The point being, I totally understand.

And yeah, we write for ourselves, to get the stories we want, but if we *really* just wrote for ourselves, we wouldn't post it. Feedback really *is* an important part of the process.

--

and school writing is SO DIFFERENT! It is really hard, but in a different way. And then writing fic on top of it. I am super impressed you know - you work full time AND study AND write. I can barely keep it together!

[angels3.livejournal.com]

I don't think people leave comments like they used to. Of course I'm 16 months and counting into a writers block so....