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Not sure how to explain it all without being emotional over it. I survived my first full week at work. Yes, you heard that right. I finally have a job!!! I'm enjoying it so far and there are a handful of people that have been very sweet and kind to me!! I also met the young woman who I will be mentoring. This teacher is working with pre-kindergarten age students and wants to work with toddlers. So, I will be supporting her with this change and I've already had the opportunity to work with her and she is amazing and will transition nicely. Our classroom needs to have some added plumbing and supplies ordered in order for the classroom to be accepted by the licenser. It will be a process but we are hoping it will be up and running by March. I feel its slightly quick but you never know what can happen. We are brainstorming what we want to call our classroom, for example, the butterflies, or something else. We both like it and will try to find a way to talk more about it too.

So, long story short, the first job I accepted was in a federal building and I needed to have a federal background check. As of two weeks ago, my status is still pending. Needless to say, finances were beginning to change and unemployment benefits don't help completely. So, I went back on the hunt for a job and pretty much got hired on the spot. Meaning, I had the interview on a Thursday and the next Thursday I was working.

I'm adjusting well and getting into a routine of working and taking a class at the local community college.

The class is going well and I feel slightly out of place. Though, the professor has been kind and supportive. I'll be nervous when we start writing and working in groups to hear feedback. I'm ready for it despite the fact I'm setting myself up for the negativity than positivity. Though, I'm really excited about that part and overcome the not so great things about my writing. And not to take it so personally. Or as a target towards me. More about the class as time goes on.

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I am officially done with school. I got an A in my last and final class.

I have earned my Master's Degree!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

( The bottle of emotions exploded... )

My class is officially over. My final grade a B. 89.64

I am so relieved this class is over and I can relaxed and focus on a new class next week. Though I'm REALLY REALLY nervous about my writing ability as a continue to move forward in the program.

My last grades for assignments were a 3.6 - 4.0 - 3.75 - 1.6

The 1.6 is the paper assignment. I pretty much flunked it and it is what it is. I was never going to make this teacher happy no matter what I did.

Goodbye to the 4.0 GPA I had in the program.

I was overjoyed that I had this GPA in a program full of writing. Writing and I don't go well together. Though I overcame it and pushed forward. I achieved these grades and earned them while going to work full time.

Sadly, I wonder if I will be able to make it through the next 4 classes till graduation. Clearly it's my writing that will never get a makeover and for me to see the progress. I'm a quite disappointed in myself for the low grades this term, but I put my heart and soul into the assignment. I didn't follow the directions clearly enough to get a better mark. It's more like I didn't write it appropriately in graduate standards.

I'm glad it's over, but I'm going to be on edge over my grades in my future classes. I don't have words to explain how I feel.

I sent my paper to the writing center to be reviewed by a tutor. It was for today and I was anxious to get home to find out what was said.

It was not as BAD as I thought it would be.

( Take a look!!!! )

Well, I got my paper back and I failed it completely. I got a 2.20 out of a 4.0 - let's just say that it's a D for a letter grade. Plus, not a grade I wanted to come home too, either.

I have managed my way through 6 classes. So I have made an appointment at the Writing Center. I hope it helps because it took a toll on my confidence with writing. I'm trying to LEARN and get a sense of WHY my writing is horrible. I mean it sucks and after looking it over - I'm not surprised I failed. My sentences are horrible and don't make any sense. I'm impressed that I made it this far without much comment to my grammar. Well, I hope the tutor at the writing center can help me out.

( My Paper... )

Erin, you did a good job of covering the topics of the prompt. Some of your sentence structures are awkward. Try reading your paper out loud to see if the sentences are formed in a way that you would speak. Sometimes this is a good test of the “readability” of our writing. This is a good way to find sentences that don’t “flow” the way that we want them to. Let me know if you have any questions about the comments in your paper. TD

This was my professor's comment about my recent paper I wrote that I spent 5 and a half hours on.

Grammar is going to be the death of me - it really is.

I try to stay strong and keep my emotions under control but its hard. Now I need to spend MORE time on my homework that I just don't have. It is so frustrating.

I'm never going to get it. I just want to cry and give up. I want to give up so much and I push myself so hard because I have a 4.0 GPA. I have NEVER achieved an A in any of my classes growing up. I am proud of these accomplishments I have made through my Master's Program. Now I know what I will be doing after I complete my Master's. I will be taking a GRAMMAR class. I don't know why I get overly emotional about it but I do. So now I have to be even more aware of what I write and HOW I write it. It's still a good grade, a 3.5 out of a 4.0 but its more about the grammar and comments about my writing. I know stuipd right!!

Someday I will get it!! I hope.

Well I'm in my sixth class in my Master's Degree Program and I've been doing a great job. I hate to put anything in someone's face or be con-seeded in any means, but I have been doing really well. 5 Classes taken and received an A in each class. Currently in my sixth class and currently have an A, but that can always change. I work really hard to achieve the grades I have worked hard for and earned. Though APA style is kicking my butt and driving my life crazy. There are so many rules to follow and I'm trying my best to make sure I follow them with accuracy. :/

My last paper I just got back my professor commented on the use of commas and semi-colons. I should read up on that before my next paper. And now my grammar is being picked a part - along with my in-text citations. I know its to help me in the long run but I feel I will never accomplish it. It brings me down (makes me cry) and I try so hard to give the professor the assignment they are asking and looking for. I will never give up but feel like all I can focus on is SCHOOL. I work 40 hours a week and come home and do homework for the rest of the time. I still need a time during this time to keep me sane.

It just makes me really wonder about my writing skills. Oh! I know, NEEDS HELP!!!! I complete makeover. In my school papers I need to remember to spell out all words and not to use slang language. Not that I do but still I need to write in a formal manner and I try my best and to cite in APA style appropriately. It is hard and now I have to work extra hours to make sure my assignments meet all standards before sending it in. I probably should really think about taking a grammar class because I feel like I have no clue on basic grammar. I love the comments and boost to make my next paper even better and I will always strive for this. I had to email my professor and re-send her an assignment, claiming I never completed it, which I did. I explained that the word document had 2 pages and the part she was looking for was on the second page. I sent the document in 2 different ways for her to get it that I did complete the assignment.

Trust me - who will want to read this again. Who wants to hear me complain about WRITING. LOL. Not many will. I don't blame them to be honest.

Anyway, it makes me wonder why should I continue writing in Fandom. I know my stories need lots of work and the stories don't seem to catch a readers eye. I wrote a story for a secret Santa challenge and my giftee liked it. No one knows how it felt that she liked it, truly liked it and thanked me for writing it for her. I have to say, I'm damn fucking proud of this story. The emotional ride I went through pushed me to complete it and write the story I wanted to share. I'm really nervous about writing and sharing more stories for Fandom. I really do enjoy it, but I have so much to learn. I'm excited to work on my newest story and I hope it goes well. I'm not sure I will be able to pull it off but willing to take chances and risks. I know people have told me to 'keep on writing' and to 'practice practice practice' but its hard when you have no natural talent or the ability of creative expression. Anyway now that the tears have dried I will always continue to strive to do better and achieve my goals.

The social identity that evokes a strong, deep emotion within myself that has manifested its way into my life. It would be my social identity of being a writer. For the last couple of years I have been writing fiction stories based on myself and characters from my favorite television show. It’s a way to express myself that I feel would be difficult to express to those people who mean a lot to me in my life. These stories help me to share my thoughts and views about a fantasy world that I feel and can relate to in a manner I might not feel comfortable to share in the real world. Everyone has their own views and thoughts about various topics and subjects that writers write about and if a person doesn’t understand it, will be offended or criticize what the writer is conveying through their writing. Writing gives me a way to express myself without being judged, questioned, or criticized by what I am writing. I’m part of a membership of other writers that are able to express themselves in the same manner I’m able to express myself. Many writers might share similar stories, but with their own thoughts, ideas, and views of how they see their characters and where they want to take the story (Deaux, 2001, p. 1). Writing is a way to share our experiences in life, in a therapeutic way to release our built up emotions and feelings about ourselves or the characters we chose to write about and express with others.

I now have the time to sit and talk about my wonderful trip to New Jersey and meeting up with some amazing friends.

At the beginning of the month, I went to NJ Con 2014 and I had an amazing time. I sadly, had to split my time with the convention, meeting and hanging out with my friends, and doing my homework and meeting my deadlines of posting it. It was an interesting time to balance it all, I have to say.

At the convention, I met,

aelia1980,

deanshot, and

disneymagics. It was very nice to meet you all. I enjoyed spending time with you and getting to know you during the time at the convention.

I enjoyed the panels and I loved Mark's panel. He was so funny and shared some interesting theories about his character and the relationship with the Winchesters. I loved how he walked around in the audience and answer most or all of the questions in character.

I enjoyed the panel of Jared and Jensen, of course. I loved how Jensen sang two songs for the fans. Its a joy to see their happiness and joy of being together, on stage, sharing their love of the show with their fans!!! Watching their easy-going banter is fun to see; they feel so comfortable with one another. Pure love and respect for each other, it will never leave them whatsoever.

I got my picture taken and Jared and one with Jensen. It was my first time meeting Jensen, so it was a great moment. I got to give them a hug and thank them for taking the time to spend it with their fans!!!

It was a great trip all around and in the future, I will do it again. Probably go for gold, depending on money and stuff, but I would like to do it again, sometime.

I also enjoyed talking with another fan while I was working on some homework. It was nice to express myself about the boys and their characters. Hoping for the brotherly love moment to happen and for Sam to share how he truly feels about his brother and vise versa. I just want them to admit their mistakes and know that what they decided, when it comes to each other, that it was due to their love for one another. I want them to stop hiding how they truly care and love each other. Its completely evident, I just wish they could have a moment to recognize it in the long run.

( My supports... )

I have some happy news to share!!! I finally got my Final Grade for my Second Class for my Master's Program and I got an A!! After the struggles and ups and downs of real life, this made my day!!!!

I don't even know where to begin in all honesty.

Work has been crazy. The children have been full of energy so lets just say we spend most of our time outdoors!!!! LOL. which helps because they have time to run around and get that energy out of their little bodies. I still have a co-teacher that does nothing and I get no support from her regarding the classroom or children. I have a few students who are very aggressive and I cant do it all myself.

School!!! Gah!!! Help me now. All my assignments have been turned in on time and I have received wonderful feedback. Though what kills me is that in just 3 days she expects so much from us and I am not explaining about the work but everyone has a life. I work 40 hours a week or more and I am lucky I have enough time to finish all assignments. So tonight I will be working on my chart again to get most of the sections complete. I really don't want to spend 18 hours on it within 2 days. I already started it so that helps.

Editing!!! Well I am at the editing stage of my Big Bang with a wonderful beta!!!! I have 2 chapters completed of editing and need to resend them to my beta. I am getting nervous and anxious regarding my story as the second half gets looked at. I hope the emotion, angst, and love are shown in a well manner. Gah!!! I hope so. Cause the next thing will be posting so that will be an interesting challenge for me!!! But getting excited to share my story in July!!!

( Bottoming and Topping )

Hi Erin,
Thanks for your outstanding posting and responses to more than two of your classmates this week. Your posting was substantial and added much to the discussion forum. I appreciate the effort and quality of your work. Thanks!

This makes my day!!!!

It makes me feel good about the work I am doing for my classes and that my professors can see that, makes it all worth while.

Well I have been a student for the last 6 weeks (currently in week 6) and I am doing very well I must say!! Yay to me!! I have a 98% so far and I could not be happier. It has been hard getting back into the swing of things for being a student but I feel confident that I will be able to do well and get my Master's. Its been a dream/goal for me to achieve this level of education.

I have been honored by the feedback from my Professor regarding some of my work. They are truly eye opening to me as a professional and personally to my self for my writing skills. And its great to heart and read some of the comments that are able to help inspire the student.

Feedback from my Professor:

Outstanding posting Erin. You seem to be on the right path with your quest to "By learning more about sensitive issues I can take my biased out and respect the families and how they view sensitive issues." Good for you!

Outstanding work! I believe that your report presents a clear understanding of the overall mission of the early childhood field. Certainly anyone new to early childhood would benefit from reading your work.

There are other comments but these two struck a cord with me I have to say.

Over the years I have been told my writing is not the greatest I have to say and I have never really received positive feedback regarding my writing. So any form of writing that I do with its for school, for work, and personal enjoyment (FANFIC writing), I find it very hard and that it takes me a lot time to get out what I am trying to say. So this is why, in some form of way, why this year I have been trying to push myself SO hard to complete my Big Bang story. I have to say I am proud of my word count, even though this story has been in the works, sadly for 3 to 4 years now. I find myself putting super high expectations on this one story that I really should not and just have fun writing the story that has been in my head for way to long. Anyway thanks for letting me share some personal notes regarding this topic. My new goal is to complete my story and submit it by April 26 because of vacation to Reno on April 27!!

Well I have to say that I have been very busy for the last 4 weeks. I have finally started my Master's Program in Early Childhood Education and I am so excited about it. I had to create a blog that I will be using for my schooling. SO far I am doing really well. Thought this APA style format is sort of new to me and I am working really hard to understand it as best I can. Wish me luck!!!

As for my Big Bang story I hope I can finish it. I have been writing and working scenes on paper and I am trying to find the time to get it all out onto the computer screen but I am still staying positive about getting it complete!!!

Hi Everyone,

Just wanted you all to know that I am still alive and around. I have officially started my Masters Program 3 weeks ago. I have created a blog for the class as well which is an interesting and unique part of school. So far I am doing well!!!

As I am still trying to accomplish my Big Bang this year. I have been writing scenes everywhere and time that I have even though I have school. This year it needs to be accomplished and I will push myself as hard as I can to get it done.

I have been upset regarding people hating on Sam's character or Dean's character and it just needs to stop but I know it won't but if you love the show so much as a fan than you should LOVE BOTH BROTHERS. I am say and admit that I am a Dean girl BUT I love Sam as well. I think the WRITERS have lost the true meaning behind the brothers relationship. I don't fulling feel that Sam or Dean would be so down right hurtful and crude to get there point across. I would love to see more about Dean and why he feels he does not deserve things that Sam wanted and had for some time in his life. I would love to see more about Sam and how he feelings regarding the path he lead and how much he wanted to stop it. Sam cares for Dean as much as Dean cares for Sam. They just care for each other in different ways. I would love a heart to heart scene where DEAN is finally being true to himself and to Sam regarding the choices and mistakes he has made over the years. Also I am tired of the same hate towards Jared and Jensen personally and regarding their acting skills. As far as I can tell this season has taken a toll on both Jared and Jensen, emotionally - mentally - and physically. And I don't think either one of them like when the "brother issues" occur or last as long as they have in recent seasons. Sam has always wanted to show Dean that Dean can be is OWN person and find the gray areas as time goes on. Dean is too afraid to let that happen because he is afraid to give his heart to his brother, for his brother to just step on it. Anyway that is how I been feeling. And I don't expect anyone to agree with me but I just needed to get it off my chest.

Well its official!! I am a Walden University Student. I start this Monday and I am a little nervous about it. I created a blog using blogger.com. This is the interesting part for me. I am very familiar with the idea of blogging but the expectations of the class is new to me so hopefully I will make it through!!

My first class is all about my professionalism in the field and I have a lot of experiences to share!!!

Hi Everyone!!!

Some good news...I finally got accepted into Walden University and I start in a couple of weeks. Totally excited about it!!! Finally some positive shit happening in my life.

Hi to all my journal friends,

I am so sorry I have not posted my Chapter to my story yet. I been writing a lot so I hope to have it finished as soon as I can. I been workingon my stupid thesis and another class so its been hard to work on my chapter.

Loves
Erin

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