Feelings and Goals
Oct. 9th, 2017 10:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yonkyuI was going to share some good news with everyone but at the same time, it doesn’t feel like good news either.
The only good news at this moment is that my boss will be in another center for the next three months. Yay!!! I’m hoping my stress levels will go down and I can focus on the children in my classroom and my confidence as a teacher. Now that I’m not confident in my role, I am, it's just hard when every positive thing I accomplish gets pushed down and stepped on like a bug. My boss is covering a director who is on family leave for the next three months and my boss is filling in for her. So, I’m excited to see how work will be without the added stress of my boss.
I keep missing my monthly goals posts and feel bad that I’m posting so late that I push it off until the next month. So, instead of making one for each month for the rest of the month, I’m going to do it now.
My goals for the next three months will be focusing on my community and make sure there are monthly posts up on the date and shared on DW. I keep forgetting to update the comm site on DW. I plan on getting better with it. And sorry for the pictures being too big, I don’t know how to fix them and make them smaller.
I have realized that I’m a pretty good Alpha reader for those who need me and I’m willing to branch out and offer my help to others who need it. I will help me with my own writing and that’s what matters. I am willing to go outside my comfort zone and check spelling, grammar, and point out things the seem off or long sentences and things like that. I can’t offer suggestions on long sentences to make short or rearrange because I struggle with it myself. But everything else I’m willing to do and support those that need it with all the upcoming challenges.
I’ve been struggling with my writing and doing my best to push forward. I’m sorry that I keep bringing the same shit up over and over again. But it's with a sad heart that I can’t write a certain character that is a huge part of some stories that I have been trying to keep back into writing. I can’t and I have to keep them on a shelf. I going to attempt to write what comes natural and stay away from specific characters. I signed up for a challenge with the pairing of Castiel and Gabriel and I’m having fun with them. Trying not to overthink anything, but this is what is holding me back from moving forward. Most of it comes from character development of SPN and the fear of being OCD. It has been clear to me that being in character is a must no matter what kind of story you are writing. And because of it all, it's hard to believe that I’m doing okay in the world of fandom and fanfiction. So, I’ll be working on some other stories to practice and get better and build my confidence. Easier said than done. I talk myself into writing drabbles and sharing them on the big pretzel, but I freak out and fear that no one would like it. I’ll do my best to try these DEW’s more often and hoping to gets easier and I’m less freaked out over things I probably should not be.
The only good news at this moment is that my boss will be in another center for the next three months. Yay!!! I’m hoping my stress levels will go down and I can focus on the children in my classroom and my confidence as a teacher. Now that I’m not confident in my role, I am, it's just hard when every positive thing I accomplish gets pushed down and stepped on like a bug. My boss is covering a director who is on family leave for the next three months and my boss is filling in for her. So, I’m excited to see how work will be without the added stress of my boss.
I keep missing my monthly goals posts and feel bad that I’m posting so late that I push it off until the next month. So, instead of making one for each month for the rest of the month, I’m going to do it now.
My goals for the next three months will be focusing on my community and make sure there are monthly posts up on the date and shared on DW. I keep forgetting to update the comm site on DW. I plan on getting better with it. And sorry for the pictures being too big, I don’t know how to fix them and make them smaller.
I have realized that I’m a pretty good Alpha reader for those who need me and I’m willing to branch out and offer my help to others who need it. I will help me with my own writing and that’s what matters. I am willing to go outside my comfort zone and check spelling, grammar, and point out things the seem off or long sentences and things like that. I can’t offer suggestions on long sentences to make short or rearrange because I struggle with it myself. But everything else I’m willing to do and support those that need it with all the upcoming challenges.
I’ve been struggling with my writing and doing my best to push forward. I’m sorry that I keep bringing the same shit up over and over again. But it's with a sad heart that I can’t write a certain character that is a huge part of some stories that I have been trying to keep back into writing. I can’t and I have to keep them on a shelf. I going to attempt to write what comes natural and stay away from specific characters. I signed up for a challenge with the pairing of Castiel and Gabriel and I’m having fun with them. Trying not to overthink anything, but this is what is holding me back from moving forward. Most of it comes from character development of SPN and the fear of being OCD. It has been clear to me that being in character is a must no matter what kind of story you are writing. And because of it all, it's hard to believe that I’m doing okay in the world of fandom and fanfiction. So, I’ll be working on some other stories to practice and get better and build my confidence. Easier said than done. I talk myself into writing drabbles and sharing them on the big pretzel, but I freak out and fear that no one would like it. I’ll do my best to try these DEW’s more often and hoping to gets easier and I’m less freaked out over things I probably should not be.
