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yonkyuI would like to take a moment and reflect on the Winchester's relationship. Sam and Dean. I don't get passionate enough or feel confident enough to express my thoughts and feelings about these two beloved characters on Supernatural.
After last night's episode and some amazing episode reviews that I have come across; I had to share my thoughts.
This Season I am very excited to see the struggle and challenge Sam is facing in regards to Dean's situation. It is nice to finally see Sam stand up and fight for his brother. I know their love is epic and love each other on a deeper level than we can think possible. It is nice to see Sam struggle with the need to support his brother, fight for his brother, save his brother. I love seeing protective Sam and acting like a big brother. And I think he is struggling with this role reversal. Sam has always been protected whether he likes it or not and in some ways, expects the protection. Sam has not seen Dean this far down the rabbit's hole of guilt, shame, self-worthlessness, poison, selfish, etc. This is very different from the return of Hell, Purgatory, and the Mark (Season 9). Sam is not sure where he stands and it truly hurts him to see his brother so broken, out of control, and running on a thread. Sam is trying his best to support, help, and guide his brother to fight this battle with addiction. Something Sam knows all too well. Though I feel he is learning so much about Dean and a side that has always been Dean, the true Dean that does not have the influence of John. Sam wants Dean to fight the Mark, control it, to find a way to remove it. Hearing what Dean had to say in the car; Sam feels like Dean is giving up despite doing what Sam wanted him to do in the first place. Sam wants Dean to fight, prove to himself that he is worth something to those around him, more specifically to Sam. I think Sam truly misses Dean and their relationship with one another. He wants to take the pain and struggle away, but it's foreign to him on how to do that for Dean.
I am enjoying seeing a different side of Dean, a vulnerable, confused, and scared man. The Mark, dying, becoming a demon, and being somewhat saved by his brother. It truly overwhelms Dean and he is not sure what to do with that. He doesn't know how to express himself to Sam at how he feels regarding the Mark and what it does to him. He can't speak to his brother about these emotions and uses complete strangers to release those emotions and deny them after Sam confronts him. Plus he is having a hard time accepting Sam's support and advice and being the big brother compared to the little brother. Dean has a hard time accepting the protective nature in Sam and possibly wonders about the truth behind it. Dean remembers Sam telling him 'we are business partners, not brothers' (still find this hard to believe coming from Sam) and him saying he lied. What did Sam mean by lied? Though I do find it interesting that Sam and Dean are reconnecting like they had to do in Season One. Dean is trying to find where he stands with Sam and trying to make the right decision regarding the Mark. Trying to do what Sam says and fighting the Mark. Though Dean still feels like it's not worth to fight for or deal with. He got himself in this mess he needs to clean it up. Though I think he is truly trying his best to being Dean and isn't even sure who he really is to begin with. I do feel that he is starting to slowly connect the dots between his experience and Sam's experiences. I think it freaks him that that Sam really does give a shit about him and would do anything for him to get rid of the Mark. That Dean feels like he will still be a disappointment regardless if he fights to get rid of the Mark or fights to control the Mark and live with it. He feels like no matter what decision he makes that Sam will be disappointed with him and continue being 'business partners'
I would love for the brothers to have a REAL heart to heart conversation were they TRULY express these feelings openly without judgment. Help each other be the best they can be instead of thinking negatively. Help each other trust again and bring back their brotherly banter of acceptance in their own fashion.
After last night's episode and some amazing episode reviews that I have come across; I had to share my thoughts.
This Season I am very excited to see the struggle and challenge Sam is facing in regards to Dean's situation. It is nice to finally see Sam stand up and fight for his brother. I know their love is epic and love each other on a deeper level than we can think possible. It is nice to see Sam struggle with the need to support his brother, fight for his brother, save his brother. I love seeing protective Sam and acting like a big brother. And I think he is struggling with this role reversal. Sam has always been protected whether he likes it or not and in some ways, expects the protection. Sam has not seen Dean this far down the rabbit's hole of guilt, shame, self-worthlessness, poison, selfish, etc. This is very different from the return of Hell, Purgatory, and the Mark (Season 9). Sam is not sure where he stands and it truly hurts him to see his brother so broken, out of control, and running on a thread. Sam is trying his best to support, help, and guide his brother to fight this battle with addiction. Something Sam knows all too well. Though I feel he is learning so much about Dean and a side that has always been Dean, the true Dean that does not have the influence of John. Sam wants Dean to fight the Mark, control it, to find a way to remove it. Hearing what Dean had to say in the car; Sam feels like Dean is giving up despite doing what Sam wanted him to do in the first place. Sam wants Dean to fight, prove to himself that he is worth something to those around him, more specifically to Sam. I think Sam truly misses Dean and their relationship with one another. He wants to take the pain and struggle away, but it's foreign to him on how to do that for Dean.
I am enjoying seeing a different side of Dean, a vulnerable, confused, and scared man. The Mark, dying, becoming a demon, and being somewhat saved by his brother. It truly overwhelms Dean and he is not sure what to do with that. He doesn't know how to express himself to Sam at how he feels regarding the Mark and what it does to him. He can't speak to his brother about these emotions and uses complete strangers to release those emotions and deny them after Sam confronts him. Plus he is having a hard time accepting Sam's support and advice and being the big brother compared to the little brother. Dean has a hard time accepting the protective nature in Sam and possibly wonders about the truth behind it. Dean remembers Sam telling him 'we are business partners, not brothers' (still find this hard to believe coming from Sam) and him saying he lied. What did Sam mean by lied? Though I do find it interesting that Sam and Dean are reconnecting like they had to do in Season One. Dean is trying to find where he stands with Sam and trying to make the right decision regarding the Mark. Trying to do what Sam says and fighting the Mark. Though Dean still feels like it's not worth to fight for or deal with. He got himself in this mess he needs to clean it up. Though I think he is truly trying his best to being Dean and isn't even sure who he really is to begin with. I do feel that he is starting to slowly connect the dots between his experience and Sam's experiences. I think it freaks him that that Sam really does give a shit about him and would do anything for him to get rid of the Mark. That Dean feels like he will still be a disappointment regardless if he fights to get rid of the Mark or fights to control the Mark and live with it. He feels like no matter what decision he makes that Sam will be disappointed with him and continue being 'business partners'
I would love for the brothers to have a REAL heart to heart conversation were they TRULY express these feelings openly without judgment. Help each other be the best they can be instead of thinking negatively. Help each other trust again and bring back their brotherly banter of acceptance in their own fashion.