Feeling Low

[yonkyu]

I have not been feeling like myself for the past few days and it's hard when I'm not sure how many people want to listen to my story. OR the same story - over and over again.

All in all - I really don't have a support system. I mean, I have my Mom and she is great, but sometimes it's hard for her to understand though she does her best to share any advice with me regardless.

I know I have complained about this person before, but sometimes I just take things to heart. I let the smallest things get to me. A comment, any form of feedback, and concrete criticism.

My boss is not really a boss or supervisor. She never offers help even though she claims that she will help out when needed. Anyway, she comes to me and said "Erin do you know what this number is?" I explained to her that I do not know what this number is, but it looks like a co-workers handwriting. Then she looks at the child's emergency agreement form and says "I need to take this." My boss walks out and returns minutes later. She explained to me "These forms are out of date and expired in 2013. And when you complete a change of status it needs to go on the emergency form and transportation form. I need you to do this and it has to be on the paperwork."

My boss leaves the room and I just shake my head. It's my turn to be yelled at and treated like a child. She has this tone that is demanding and condescending at the same time. I feel belittled and degraded when she does this to myself and others. Sometimes I don't know what to do with myself.

But I am glad I can come here and share my feelings with people I hope to care enough to listen. My FList is my support system and without you all, I would be worse and a shell of myself.

The only thing I am looking forward too and a challenge at mpregwinchester. I want to fill a prompt for someone since I missed out on the challenge event for mpreg at the movies. I feel so disconnected with everyone and need to find it again.

Comments

[cillab42.livejournal.com]

Dealing with puffed up supervisors can be draining. Just know that it's ger a.nd noy you.

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

It is draining to have a supervisor like her. I was on a home visit with her and she has to make a sly comment. It is so frustrating.

I know and I try so hard not to take it personally or let it bother me as much as it does, but it's hard to do.

[vexed_wench]

I'm sorry. That sounds awful. No real advice, but *hugs* and I hope it gets better.

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

It is awful. No advice, never any advice.

Thanks for the hugz!!! It makes me feel better. And I hope it gets better soon too.