Expressing Feelings
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yonkyuTitle: Expressing Feelings
Fandom: Original Work
Verse: Journal Entries
Characters: Skye
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1383
Summary: Skye expresses her feelings about writing.
A/N: I thought I would try something new to help support my writing. It was suggested by a friend, so I thought I would attempt it. Skye is my character, I own her. This is not beta, but I did use Grammarly.
Now part of the journal entries verse.
Hi,
My name is Skye and I like to write stories. I’m still new to the whole process of story-telling, but I enjoy it. A few years back, I decided to sign-up for a well-known challenge in a specific community group. I was excited and nervous all the way through. I pushed myself to keep going, to finish the story before the deadline. I may it on time at the very last minute. The whole process was overwhelming, to say the least. I had to search high and low for an editor, which they are known as ‘betas.’ I remember posting there for help and to my surprise, someone was willing to help me out. They helped me out with three chapters and a friend of theirs offered to help the week I had to post. It was a mess and my anxiety got the best of me. I posted the story but felt it was incomplete and rushed. But I got it out there. Whether many people have read it or not, it doesn’t matter. I completed a story that was over the expected word count. I did it with the support of others!!
I thought I would try again next year. And I did. This time, I felt it was easier and the story flew out of me like no tomorrow. I felt comfortable with what I was writing. I was able to get out what I was trying to convey to my readers. I felt satisfied and accomplished with my story. I felt proud of what I was able to create with my mind and words.
To work on new found skills with writing, I set forth to write shorter stories. It was hard at first and the ideas weren’t coming. Then I took a prompt from my own community group and work a 500-word fic. It was unbeta’d. But I wanted to get it out there and see what my readers or those who discovered my work thought about it. No comments or feedback. Just as well. Then I wrote a few more stories and felt quite accomplished with learning valuable knowledge about writing and storytelling.
At Christmas time, I wrote a fic for a friend in a completely different fandom than I’m used to. I did it to explore and attempt something new. It was a rough start and thought I would never complete it for my friend. But I did and it was exciting to write about new people and a new pairing. One that I thought about and never really looked into. I’m sad to know that show will be ending this year, but I’m going to live it up for its final season. And it’s the first story I wrote that I got a well meaningful comment from a reader. Their feedback brought me to tears. That I had improved on my writing skills in the past few years. And I agreed with them that I had improved. Again, this story was not beta, but I wanted to post it for my friend.
Having more stories under my belt and with the latest response to my story, I thought I was getting better. Improving my skills in writing a story about various characters in a completely new world.
So, I thought I would try that long word challenge again. I had an idea and I began to write it out. I even re-watched episodes to refresh my mind on what happened. My story would be full of emotions and building relationships from the three main characters of the story. I wrote it and did my best to get the showing into the story. The dialogue of my characters more natural and realistic. So, I decided to send my work over to my beta. A beta that gets me and understands me as a writer. And the extensive comments were overwhelming. My anxiety went through the roof. A good beta is supposed to be mean, hard, and help you succeed. A good beta may be mean, but mean is a good way. Be trusted and know they are there to help you get through the editing process. I found this part of writing worse than writing the story. So reading the various comments from my beta and others who I shared it with, I broke down and cried. I thought I was doing better. I was wrong. My story was a jumble of a mess. My thoughts were all over the place. I never went from point A to point B to point C like the well-written writers do. I went from point A to point K to point B. I never seem to trust my readers and I repeat myself ALL the time. Who would want to read this story? No one, that’s for sure. It’s an udder mess and not worth continuing at the moment. So, I came to the decision and withdrew from the challenge.
At first, I was so upset to pull out of the challenge. I was in denial. After looking through the comments I had to admit, my beta and alpha readers were right. It broke my heart. And as much as I’m crying writing this, I need to get it out. I know my writers have felt the same way as I did, but it’s hard when you read other people’s stories and see how well-written those stories are. I would never get to their levels through this journey I put myself on. And I’m always inspired by many writers, including my beta and alpha readers that have supported me through this process and my current story.
I came to the conclusion that my writing has marginally improved. Not even to help guide me with my current story. Too many emotions, actions, and interactions between the characters. I was telling you the story instead of showing it to you. So, the story will be going through a surgery and be put together, piece by piece. I was even told to write more. Well, I have been writing and I have stories that aren’t finished or been shown to others. They will get down too, just not at the moment.
Write more. Practice more. And you will improve. You will get it and write a meaningful story. Sitting here I’m thinking, no I won’t. I started a prompt for my own community group and its half written. I’m waiting for the BLUNT feedback so I can cry my eyes out at how horrible the story truly is. As a writer, I may never see the improvements or how far I truly have come with writing. But it would be nice to see something. I have so much to learn that it scares me that I may never get it.
It’s why I attempted something new. Express my feelings. Writing about how I feel, it’s still a form of writing. So this is me trying, practicing to get better. There might not be any dialogue, but in this piece, there wasn’t meant to be any. A way to express my feelings and my journey in writing stories. I know my challenge story will be finished, it’s going to take some time to accomplish that task. I have to dissect it and work one scene at a time. And I will convey the way I was meant to convey to my readers. I’m feeling optimistic about it.
This is very negative and I’m not going to deny the way I feel at the moment. It’s the fact that I’m willing to learn. Willing to take the advice from others. Willing to use the advice from others into my stories. There will be heartache, tears, and sweat along the way. And I will write a well-written story that I’m able to write. To the best of my abilities. I’ll be able to write a meaningful story for my characters that I love dearly.
It’s been a pleasure to share with you how I feel.
Have a wonderful night.
Skye.
Journal Entry 2
Fandom: Original Work
Verse: Journal Entries
Characters: Skye
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1383
Summary: Skye expresses her feelings about writing.
A/N: I thought I would try something new to help support my writing. It was suggested by a friend, so I thought I would attempt it. Skye is my character, I own her. This is not beta, but I did use Grammarly.
Now part of the journal entries verse.
Hi,
My name is Skye and I like to write stories. I’m still new to the whole process of story-telling, but I enjoy it. A few years back, I decided to sign-up for a well-known challenge in a specific community group. I was excited and nervous all the way through. I pushed myself to keep going, to finish the story before the deadline. I may it on time at the very last minute. The whole process was overwhelming, to say the least. I had to search high and low for an editor, which they are known as ‘betas.’ I remember posting there for help and to my surprise, someone was willing to help me out. They helped me out with three chapters and a friend of theirs offered to help the week I had to post. It was a mess and my anxiety got the best of me. I posted the story but felt it was incomplete and rushed. But I got it out there. Whether many people have read it or not, it doesn’t matter. I completed a story that was over the expected word count. I did it with the support of others!!
I thought I would try again next year. And I did. This time, I felt it was easier and the story flew out of me like no tomorrow. I felt comfortable with what I was writing. I was able to get out what I was trying to convey to my readers. I felt satisfied and accomplished with my story. I felt proud of what I was able to create with my mind and words.
To work on new found skills with writing, I set forth to write shorter stories. It was hard at first and the ideas weren’t coming. Then I took a prompt from my own community group and work a 500-word fic. It was unbeta’d. But I wanted to get it out there and see what my readers or those who discovered my work thought about it. No comments or feedback. Just as well. Then I wrote a few more stories and felt quite accomplished with learning valuable knowledge about writing and storytelling.
At Christmas time, I wrote a fic for a friend in a completely different fandom than I’m used to. I did it to explore and attempt something new. It was a rough start and thought I would never complete it for my friend. But I did and it was exciting to write about new people and a new pairing. One that I thought about and never really looked into. I’m sad to know that show will be ending this year, but I’m going to live it up for its final season. And it’s the first story I wrote that I got a well meaningful comment from a reader. Their feedback brought me to tears. That I had improved on my writing skills in the past few years. And I agreed with them that I had improved. Again, this story was not beta, but I wanted to post it for my friend.
Having more stories under my belt and with the latest response to my story, I thought I was getting better. Improving my skills in writing a story about various characters in a completely new world.
So, I thought I would try that long word challenge again. I had an idea and I began to write it out. I even re-watched episodes to refresh my mind on what happened. My story would be full of emotions and building relationships from the three main characters of the story. I wrote it and did my best to get the showing into the story. The dialogue of my characters more natural and realistic. So, I decided to send my work over to my beta. A beta that gets me and understands me as a writer. And the extensive comments were overwhelming. My anxiety went through the roof. A good beta is supposed to be mean, hard, and help you succeed. A good beta may be mean, but mean is a good way. Be trusted and know they are there to help you get through the editing process. I found this part of writing worse than writing the story. So reading the various comments from my beta and others who I shared it with, I broke down and cried. I thought I was doing better. I was wrong. My story was a jumble of a mess. My thoughts were all over the place. I never went from point A to point B to point C like the well-written writers do. I went from point A to point K to point B. I never seem to trust my readers and I repeat myself ALL the time. Who would want to read this story? No one, that’s for sure. It’s an udder mess and not worth continuing at the moment. So, I came to the decision and withdrew from the challenge.
At first, I was so upset to pull out of the challenge. I was in denial. After looking through the comments I had to admit, my beta and alpha readers were right. It broke my heart. And as much as I’m crying writing this, I need to get it out. I know my writers have felt the same way as I did, but it’s hard when you read other people’s stories and see how well-written those stories are. I would never get to their levels through this journey I put myself on. And I’m always inspired by many writers, including my beta and alpha readers that have supported me through this process and my current story.
I came to the conclusion that my writing has marginally improved. Not even to help guide me with my current story. Too many emotions, actions, and interactions between the characters. I was telling you the story instead of showing it to you. So, the story will be going through a surgery and be put together, piece by piece. I was even told to write more. Well, I have been writing and I have stories that aren’t finished or been shown to others. They will get down too, just not at the moment.
Write more. Practice more. And you will improve. You will get it and write a meaningful story. Sitting here I’m thinking, no I won’t. I started a prompt for my own community group and its half written. I’m waiting for the BLUNT feedback so I can cry my eyes out at how horrible the story truly is. As a writer, I may never see the improvements or how far I truly have come with writing. But it would be nice to see something. I have so much to learn that it scares me that I may never get it.
It’s why I attempted something new. Express my feelings. Writing about how I feel, it’s still a form of writing. So this is me trying, practicing to get better. There might not be any dialogue, but in this piece, there wasn’t meant to be any. A way to express my feelings and my journey in writing stories. I know my challenge story will be finished, it’s going to take some time to accomplish that task. I have to dissect it and work one scene at a time. And I will convey the way I was meant to convey to my readers. I’m feeling optimistic about it.
This is very negative and I’m not going to deny the way I feel at the moment. It’s the fact that I’m willing to learn. Willing to take the advice from others. Willing to use the advice from others into my stories. There will be heartache, tears, and sweat along the way. And I will write a well-written story that I’m able to write. To the best of my abilities. I’ll be able to write a meaningful story for my characters that I love dearly.
It’s been a pleasure to share with you how I feel.
Have a wonderful night.
Skye.
Journal Entry 2
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Date: 2016-04-17 09:56 pm (UTC)All feedback will not be good. Some people will never be happy.
I once had someone tell me they liked the plot but not the way it was done, and if I re did it they would read it.
Ummmmm er no....
It sounds cheesy but be true to you. If you like fics filled with weirdness write it. If you love the dark and creepy then go for it.
The only one you truly need to make happy is you!
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Date: 2016-04-19 01:29 am (UTC)I wish I could stop comparing myself with others.
It doesn't sound cheesy. I need to be true to myself. I need to write fics that I like and make me happy.
I need to write for me.
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Date: 2016-04-23 07:01 am (UTC)and betas... well, comments are just suggestions, aren't they <3
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Date: 2016-04-24 12:31 am (UTC)Betas are those who offer suggestions and a new perspective at looking at the story. The most difficult part of writing. I'm honored to have a beta that always tells me the truth and it honest with me.
Love ya <3
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Date: 2016-05-11 10:08 pm (UTC)