Inside My Mind

[yonkyu]

Title: Inside My Mind
Fandom: Original Work
Verse: Journal Entries
Characters: Skye
Rating: PG
Word Count: 875
Summary: Skye writing down her thoughts.
A/N: Skye is my character, I own her. This is not beta’d. I did use Grammarly. This will now become a verse.





Hi again,

It’s me, Skye. How are you? So, last time, I talked about my feelings about writing. I hate to say it, but I’m going to do it again. I know right? How many times am I going to talk about it? Guess what, it helps me get my feelings out. You don’t have to understand or pay any attention to what I have to say but it’s only to help me feel better about myself.

Recently, I had a friend who was kind enough to physically show me what a rough draft looked like and I was blown away at the rough story I was reading. But, this helped me see that anything I write is a rough piece of work. It might need major surgery to help make it readable, but in the end, it’s worth it. Writing is a true process, including the editing phase of writing. Though, I like to call editing surgery because it makes more sense to me than anything else. Surgery is a process in its self too. Knowing what I know now, it’s hard to find the confidence to posting a story I have created. It’s a scary place to be now and I hope it doesn’t stay with me.

I’ve been reading this book that’s a guideline for helping beginners write a story on their own. This book is a great resource tool that has helped open my eyes to see how much of a true beginner I’m in writing. I never thought I would admit that, but I’m very much a beginner who has so much to learn about: plot, structure, flow, characters, scenes, problems, conflicts, and solutions. These areas are the key points in a story and without these points, there would be no story.

I had to come to a sad reality that the story I put on the shelf was in need of major surgery. The story never went in chronical order, it went in a zigzag, upside-down order that was very confusing to follow. So, in the long run, I made the right choice to drop out of the challenge and place my story on a shelf for the time being. The story is in need of a clearer plan and outlined structure to pull this story together.

I have many things to learn about writing and I’m not afraid to admit it. I need help when it comes to writing. And it made me feel that I had no knowledge of my characters or what the plan really was all along. But, see, here’s the thing, I do know. My first chapter states the problem, shows the conflict, and a solution to that problem which leads to the next problem they need to face. The thing is, I do know what the plan and structure are for this story, and I couldn’t convey it appropriately. I repeat myself and never trusted the readers to know what they had already read. I made my readers feel stupid when I never meant for them to feel like that as they read my work. I trust the writers of the stories I love to read multiple times and never get bored of reading them. I never questioned their choices or decisions, it was their story and I trusted their perspective in telling the story. Now I need to learn how to do it for myself. It will be a struggle and all I can do is work hard at it. It will take time, even though I want to learn and get it now. It’s not going to happen that way.

I have posted my stories and honored to have the comments I received, the kudos sent my way, or the number of people reading my story. I have to remind myself why these numbers can’t be compared to others. I’m not at their level or have their experience with writing stories.

I do give myself credit for being able to write what I have written and posted. I’m honored to know that I was able to write the story I wanted to share. I wrote it for myself and to those who have the same passion for the theme that’s conveyed in the story.

I need to write in smaller pieces and not write so much at a time. I need to focus on one character’s point of view to make my points clear at what they are feeling and going through within the scene. Though, it’s writing out the scenes that push the story forward and helping the characters deal with the problem, overcome the conflict, and finding a solution that best fits the major characters in the story.

It is a real learning process and I need to remind myself that it will take time for it to flow at ease. I find it difficult to start a story in that first sentence or paragraph, but seem to feel comfortable in writing the conflict the characters are in.

In a nutshell, I’m going to continue writing. My heart wants to write the stories I’m willing to create for an audience that is willing to read it.

So, I’m off to start writing my next story.

Thanks for listening.

Skye

Comments

[vexed_wench]

Hon the more you write the more comfortable you will be with it.

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm hoping that will be the case. I'm in so much doubt at the moment that its hard to see the possible progress. I want to feel more comfortable writing and confident in what I would like to convey.

[vexed_wench]

Just remember we all go through it

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

I know. I have to be patient. And it will help for me like it has for everyone else.

[kattrip033.livejournal.com]

Beware of how to books. They are a great thing to look at and use, as long as you remember that their words are not law, savy?

You are doing so much better. Every time we work on something, I can see how you are improving.

And remember, "Don't compare your beginning to someone else's middle."