Finding Love through Nature - Chapter 4

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CHAPTER FOUR

Jared – POV

Jared sits in his actor’s chair, watching his best friend finish his final solo scenes for filming of Supernatural.  He is glad to know the long hours, emotional draining scenes, and hard work is coming to an end.  After the final scene is shot and Supernatural wraps-up, there will be a celebration of nine wonderful years of Supernatural with the whole cast and crew.

Jared’s greatest gift will be spending time with his best friend in Portland, Maine, for a wonderful, well-deserved, relaxing vacation.  Jared and Jensen made plans for some guy-bonding before either one of them starts a new project.  Jared is hoping to use the time to reminisce with Jensen over some of the amazing memories they’ve shared over the years.  He can finally see Jensen back to his old self again since his break up with Danni.  Jared is proud of the accomplishments Jensen has made to stop smoking completely, stop drinking except for social interactions, and lose the weight he put on due to the break up.  Jensen is in the best shape of his life.  Jared is impressed with Jensen’s efforts.

Since Jared’s public breakup with Gen two years ago, he’s spent most of his time with Jensen.  It will be refreshing to have this vacation with Jensen where they can make new memories.  Jared knows Jensen could use a relaxing trip away from others as well.  He has seen Jensen struggle deep within his heart to come to terms with the split after all the time has passed, and sees the sparkle in Jensen’s eyes returning finally.  He is grateful to see his friend come to terms with his emotions and knows that Jensen will love again.

Jared is excited about the trip, but he’s also nervous, because he wants to share his true feelings with Jensen.  He is afraid of how Jensen will react to the information he has been falling in love with Jensen since before his split with Genevieve.  Jared suspects that Jensen likes men as well, but keeps it a secret and hidden deep within himself.  Over the last few months, Jensen seems to blush, making his freckles stand out, over the simplest touch, such as when their fingers brush passing a plate or the remote.  Just calling Jensen’s name seems to cause the color to rise in the man’s cheeks.  Maybe with all the recent changes in Jensen’s life and the friendly support, he’s had more confidence to find his way out of his shell.  Jared is proud of Jensen and is hopeful that their relationship is strong enough to survive the revelation of his feelings for Jensen.

Jared makes reservations at a special getaway that has many outdoor adventures and trails very similar to the countryside back in Texas.  Hoping for a future together, Jared hopes Jensen’s enjoyment of the vacation leads him to be comfortable enough with himself to express his own feelings and stop denying what he wants out of life.

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After a small lunch break, Jared goes to sit back in his actor’s chair to watch his best friend complete his final scene for the last episode of Supernatural.  Jared watches Jensen with pride knowing Jensen will pull out all the big guns for his final scene on the show.  Jensen will be focusing on the intricate details of his performance.

Jensen - POV

Jensen hates the emotional scenes.  He has a hard time separating Dean from himself when the extreme emotions are in his headspace.

Jensen goes to Jared, who helps him relax from the rollercoaster of emotions by using the breathing techniques and massages Jared taught him.

Jensen feels blessed to have had Jared around for the last year.  Ever since Jensen and Danneel broke up, Jensen has been focused on making the final season the best one in Supernatural history.  Feeling depressed and overwhelmed, Jensen has completely relied on Jared and work to help him get back on his feet.

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Jensen walks towards Jared who is staring out into space.  Jensen places his hand on Jared’s shoulder and shakes him gently.

“Jared, wake up.  It’s time to pack up for our trip.”

“Sorry, Jen, I was daydreaming, can’t wait to relax!”

Jensen waits for Jared to stand and head towards Jensen’s trailer to relax and have a few beers to unwind from the emotions of their careers on Supernatural.

Inside the trailer, Jensen plops down on the couch with a sigh of relief as he sinks into the soft cushions.  As Jensen closes his eyes, he feels Jared take a seat next to him and place his boots on the cherry colored coffee table with a thud.  Jensen takes off his work boots and places his feet with Jared’s on the hand-made wooden stained table created by their friend, Steve.

Jensen takes the remote that is sitting on the matching cherry colored end table and turns it on to the Maverick’s game.

Jensen turns to Jared and says, “Man, I can’t wait for our well-deserved vacation.  I just want to relax and take it easy for a while before I think about doing another television series.”

“I hear you on that, Jen.  Our vacation will be totally relaxing.”

“Jared, do you think I’ll ever be happy again?” Jensen says nervously, waiting patiently for Jared to respond with an honest answer; knowing that his happiness is there in his heart, but he was just scared to fully grab the happiness at his fingertips.

“Of course, you will be happy again, Jen.  Just hang on and be strong.  It just takes time and sometimes what we want is right in front of us.”

“I will, Jared. I’m trying to stay strong.” Jensen shares as he gives Jared a squeeze on his right shoulder with a hopeful smile that it will come true.

“It will happen for you.  I will show you.” Jared says, confidently.  He wishes Jensen would understand that their friendship has been changing for the better and to open his heart for what can happen between them.

“Show me?  Sure, Jay.  Again, thanks for all the support and encouragement you’ve shown me.”

“That’s what friends do.”

Jensen listens to the way Jared says friends and it seems to hurt Jared in a way.  Jared meant it, but it sounded like he wishes to say something more meaningful to Jensen.  Even Jared’s body language changes and tenses up.

“Hey, Jen, let me give you a massage to get your mind off of it.” Jared says and Jensen can tell Jared wants to change the subject.

“Thanks, Jared, that would be helpful.”

Jensen watches Jared get off the couch and walk around towards the back of the couch.  Jared places his large, strong hands on Jensen’s shoulders, and does magic with his fingers.

As Jared kneads Jensen’s muscles and gets the knots out of his shoulders, Jensen feels at ease and relaxes.  His head falls backwards against the couch and he moans aloud.  He closes his eyes as he battles the confusion of sweet arousal from Jared’s touch alone.  Jensen’s breathing picks up pace and hopes Jared doesn’t notice too much because he’s not ready to deal with his desire for Jared.

Jared continues to massage his shoulders and moves to the nape of Jensen’s neck.  Jensen’s head slumps to the side as he slips into a nice daze of relaxation.  Jensen notices his breathing is slowly coming back to normal as he keeps himself contained with Jared massaging his shoulders with mixed excitement running through Jensen’s body.

Jared continues to massage his neck; he places his large hands on either side of Jensen’s head and pulls it gently back against the couch.  Jensen feels Jared’s long fingers on his scalp, kneading his mind, which is reaching overactive levels trying to sort his confusing feelings for Jared.  Jensen has been trying to make sense of these feelings he harbors and how to overcome any difficulties they might cause in their friendship.  Jensen closes his eyes again and falls asleep while Jared continues to massage his scalp.

Jared – POV

Once Jensen feel into a peaceful sleep, Jared found himself sitting at the small kitchen table and not so reluctantly admiring the way Jensen’s neck looked all exposed and inviting.  He fought the impulse to go back over there and breathe in Jensen’s musk.  It was taking every ounce of his waning willpower to stay seated.

Jensen is his best friend; his one fear of sharing the truth is ripping his heart into pieces by keeping his profound love to himself.  This is why Jared is relieved Jensen agreed with the vacation and time together in Maine.  Jared hopes Jensen will have the courage to express his true feelings with him on some of the adventures they will be having together.  It’s hard to keep this fear inside and not share it with anyone that sometimes Jared wants to scream it at the top of his lungs.  Jared wishes he had the courage to walk up to Jensen and kiss him on those red plump lips.

Amazingly, Jared has not even shared this with Chad, because Jared wants to share his secret with Jensen first.  Jared wants to find a way to tell Jensen on his own.  Chad is not the best person to share secrets.

Jared hopes this vacation will help the both of them to find the confidence to share their hearts with each other.

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In the morning, Jared wakes up and lays in his bed staring at the ceiling, hoping this trip with Jensen goes well.  He just hopes Jensen understands that what they feel for each other is okay.  He doesn’t want Jensen to think that loving Jared is wrong based on Jensen’s own personal feelings regarding the topic and the Catholic faith Jensen believes in very strongly.

Jared rolls over onto his stomach and stretches all the kinks out of his back.  He looks over to the clock on the marble oak nightstand and it reads 8:30 AM in red block lettering.  He thinks to himself by this time tomorrow they will be on an airplane to Maine.  He is excited that the trip is finally here; he has never been to Maine before and neither has Jensen.  Jared will be experiencing it with Jensen and it will mean so much more.

Jared gets out of bed and heads in for a shower.  He lets the water get hot enough to help relax his aching muscles from the stunts he performs on Supernatural.  He walks into the shower and stands under the running water as it massages his head and body.  He closes his eyes and all he can think about is Jensen.  Jared can imagine what it would be like to see him naked in the shower all wet and steamy.

Jared turns around so he is facing the faucet of the shower and slides down to sit in the tub.  Jared leans his head back and can picture Jensen all hot and bothered.

“Jensen and Jared are in the shower helping each other wash up with soap.  Jensen grabs the sponge and squeezes a generous amount of soap onto the sponge.  He uses both hands to lather the soap in to the sponge and places it on Jared’s heart.  He keeps his hand on Jared’s heart for what feels like hours before he starts moving the sponge across Jared’s chest and down towards his belly button.

Jensen looks at Jared with intense, heated eyes, and leans forward to give a sweet and gentle kiss.  Jared returns the kiss and he can feel Jensen move the sponge to his back.  Jensen moves the sponge up and down, and starts making small circles with the sponge.  They kiss chastely which becomes more heated and passionate as Jensen continues to tease Jared with a sponge filled with soap.

Jensen moves his head down slowly to break their kiss and slowly turns Jared around so Jared is facing the faucet of the shower.  Jensen places his hand on Jared’s chest and helps clean off the soap from his chest.  Jared can feel his shaft twitch awake the more Jensen continues to place sweet kisses against his back and moves the sponge up and down Jared’s leg.  Jensen moves the sponge to the other leg and Jared moans aloud.

“Aww, Jen, that feels great; keep going.”

“I will never stop.”

Jensen brings his body to full height and he wraps his left arm around Jared’s chest as his right hand moves down Jared’s side and slowly moves it toward Jared’s swollen shaft.  Jensen’s hand wraps around Jared’s cock and smiles into Jared’s neck giving Jared a gentle kiss.  Jensen’s hand starts to pump Jared’s cock slowly, up and down with a slight twist to the head.  Jensen continues to pump Jared’s dick faster and harder as he suckles on Jared’s neck to leave a slight bruise of love.  Jared can feel his knees getting weak and his knees buckling from under himself and Jensen’s strong arm holding Jared up.

“Jen, so good.  It feels so good.”

“I know it feels good and so hot.”

“Jen, you’re so hard.”

“Hard for you, baby.”

Jared can feel his balls tighten and his breathing hitch as Jared feels the pressure of release coming.  Jensen continues to pump Jared’s dick hard and fast with a twist to the mushroom head and Jared leans into Jensen as Jared’s release takes over and Jared is coming.

“Oh, God. So good.”

“So good.”

Jensen turns Jared around and lifts his hand to his mouth and licks the come from it.

“It tastes so good, Jared.”

“How good?”

Jared leans into kiss Jensen and pushes his tongue in to get a taste of Jensen and himself from Jensen’s mouth.”

Jared opens his eyes and he can see the steam rising up towards the ceiling.  He feels his balls tighten as he realizes what he’s really doing in the shower.  He got so lost in his daydream of Jensen that Jared began to pump his own dick hard and fast.  He continues to pump his cock hard and fast as he comes with “Jensen” falling from his lips.

Jared quickly grabs his sponge and squeezes some soap onto it and leathers up his body.  He rinses all of the soap off and turns off the water.  He grabs the blue towel and dries himself and uses it to pre-dry his hair.  Jared grabs his boxers and pulls them up his body and pulls his sweatpants up as well before heading to the kitchen to make breakfast.

Jared walks towards the truck and notices one of his tires his low.  He will have to stop by the gas station to fill the tire up with air before heading to Jensen’s apartment.  Jared pulls out of the driveway and heads down the interstate towards the gas station.  He pulls up towards the air pump tank and fills the tire with the right amount of air pressure.

Jared feels his phone buzz in his pocket and pulls it out to see who left him a message.

          Jared, meet me at the cafe near my place.

Jared texts Jensen back and lets him know that he will meet Jensen there as soon as he can once Jared finishes putting air in his tire.

          Okay.  I will see you there.

Jared finishes putting the right amount of air in his tire according to the tire pressure machine and heads back into his truck.  On his way to the café, Jared is trying to figure out why they were meeting up there instead of the apartment.  Unless something happened and Jensen wants more time to go over the details of their trip.  Jensen at times gets nervous when he has to travel somewhere new.

Jared arrives at the café and pulls into a parking spot in the parking lot a few blocks away from the café.  Jared has to walk a few blocks to get there but he can see Jensen’s gray truck parked by the café.   The closer Jared gets to the café he can see Jensen leaning up against the building with jeans and a blue shirt, Jared’s favorite shirt.  Jared can tell when Jensen has spotted him because Jensen stands with his arms opened wide in greeting.  A quick hug with a handclap against the back twice is their way of greeting one another.

Jared steps back and asks Jensen, “Hey, why are we meeting at the café?”

“I thought we could have some coffee while we went over the details of the trip.”

“We can do that, Jen, but I thought you would be more comfortable at home.”

“I know, but I thought I would go with my gut and go over it at the café.”  Jensen says shyly.

As Jensen finishes speaking he motions Jared with his hand to head inside and find a seat.  The waitress greets them and sits them down in a booth.  She hands a menu to each of them and Jared just thinks: there has to be a reason why Jen wants to meet at the café?  Unless, he is trying to express his feelings in a small, subtle way, without giving any hint at his feelings for him.

“Hey Jared, what time is our flight?”

Jared watches his face change from calm to unsettled.  Jensen is not a fan of flying in an airplane, ever since a flight to Chicago had the plane drop their oxygen masks and dropped multiple feet downwards very quickly.

“Our flight leaves at 8:30 AM, we should be at the airport by 6:30 AM.”

“I’ll be ready then.  Will you be picked up first?”

“Yes, Chris, he said he would drive us in.  Get me first and head to your place.”

“Great, sounds like a plan.”

The waitress comes back and Jared orders a large hazelnut latte and Jensen orders a large black coffee, like usual.  Jared looks up at Jensen and smiles, as Jared watches Jensen order himself an egg bagel breakfast sandwich with eggs, cheese, and bacon, with a side of chive cream cheese.  It amazes Jared how Jensen orders something Jared usually eats all the time at the café.
Sometimes Jared doesn’t think Jensen realizes the little things he does, like getting chive cream cheese for his breakfast sandwich.

The waitress comes back with Jensen’s food and places it right in front of him while refilling his cup of steaming black coffee.  Jared watches Jensen spread the cream cheese on the egg bagel and remakes his sandwich before picking it up and taking the first bite.  Jensen moans around the first bite and looks up at Jared with a knowing smirk at how delicious the sandwich really is.

 “Jen, is it good?” Jared says, with a knowing, mischievous smirk back at Jensen.

“Jared, this shit is the bomb.” Jensen says, with a slight blush to his cheeks.

Jensen continues to eat his sandwich with orgasmic moans and deep pleasure and Jared just sits there with his own growing blush and growing erection.  Once Jensen finishes his sandwich, he pushes the plate away and looks up and smiles with understanding that Jared is blushing in his presence.  Once Jensen finishes his sandwich, he pushes the plate away and smirks knowingly at Jared’s blushing.  Jared never thought that would happen after the breakup, but he is pleased to know that he is blushing regarding the moment.

“Jared, what do the plans entail for the week?” Jensen asks, while grinning from ear to ear.  Jared smiles back with his dimples form on his face.  The heat in Jensen’s cheeks rise up slowly, making his freckles stand out.

“Jensen, we’re going to go on a Beer Tour and try some free beer samples.  Then we are going to try kayaking on the Casco Bay.  We are going to the Wildlife Park and walk their hiking trails.  The last one is a surprise Jensen, and I hope you like it.”

“Jared, it’s going to an amazing trip to begin with.  I can already smell the country air, the bay water, and nature in all its glory.  Plus, I like surprises.” Jensen says, getting all excited.

Jared is beginning to wonder if Jensen is able to read him more than he ever thought was possible about his harboring feelings.  Jared is more nervous and anxious then anything if things between them continue to grow deeper and closer together.  Jared isn’t even concerned about the gay thing because he’s beginning to wonder if Jensen is questioning his sexuality.

“I’m very glad you are as excited about the trip as me.” Jared says, with a wide grin with dimples and a slight hint of mischief.  Jared wonders if Jensen has started to analyze their growing relationship to a place of wonderful delight for both of them.

The waitress comes back to their table and clears the cups and plates from it while leaving the check on the table.  Jared tries to reach for is but Jensen is quicker.

“I got it, Jared.”

Jensen watches Jared tilt his head to the right and raise his eyebrows in question but nods his head in understanding.

The waitress collects her paid check and tip from Jensen and they get up from the table to walk to the front door to leave.

Jared pushes open the door and holds it open for Jensen.  He looks down and tucks his chin into his chest as the red flush colors Jensen’s face.  Jared just smiles wide and follows Jensen to his truck.  They say goodbye and Jensen gets inside of his truck.  Jensen waved to Jared and he watches him walk to his vehicle.

Jared watches Jensen drive down the street to his own apartment to finish getting ready for the trip.  He is excited that he will be able to share his feelings with Jensen and know that they will be able to work things out for the best.  Jared knows that Jensen is scared about accepting and understanding the emotions he is going through with his new love interest.  Jared is ready and willing to help Jensen discover love deep down, Jared got a sense that Jensen was expressing himself throughout their meeting and the battle inside his friend about loving your best friend and discovering you’re gay.  Jared has always thought Jensen was at least bisexual, but so far in the closet he would never have come to terms with it if it wasn’t for a best friend that was gay himself.  Jared hopes for the best in the sexual department as well because even though he has dated some guys he has never taken that final step.  He is hoping for that with Jensen and vice versa.

Jared starts his truck and heads home to pack for the trip and be ready for when Chris arrives to bring them to the airport.  He rides home contently.

Chapter 5