I'm a Failure!!

[yonkyu]

Well its sadly official...but after a few months of an up and down roller coaster of emotions. I am a failure...at least that is what I am made to feel like anyway.

I work with toddlers and I been in the field of early childhood education for 13 years. Anyway there is this child who is very aggressive towards the other children and teachers, and some how its blamed on ME. Where I work we have what is known and a primary caregiver for so many children and this children is my primary. I have shared my concerns with the right people and nobody seems to help or find out different ways to support this child. Now I am just waiting to be written up for the incident that happened tonight when I get looks of "why the f... didn't you stop the child." "what were YOU doing for the child to do this..." And so forth. Its been an ongoing battle since the beginning of May and still nothing has changed. Just the blame is put on me whether stated out loud or not :/ Go ME!!!!!!

While I am trying to finish my last week of homework and re-reading my story to finish editing. We will see how all of that will go. :/

I keep trying. :/ despite it all...

Comments

[dreamersdare.livejournal.com]

Ah, the delights of working in a blame culture. I share your pain.

I don't know what the procedure is for where you work, but in the same situation I would formally write up my concerns and the actions taken to date to address this, including the details of the incident in question and request for this to a) logged alongside any formal discipling you get, b) escalated along the appropriate channels within your organisation and c) recorded in any formal records you hold for this child.

Not that it will necessarily solve anything, but there should be a formal record from your perspective - it is highly unlikely anything will change overnight and that history is probably going to be important for helping this child.

[yonkyu.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your kind and supportive words. Anytime there is an accident or incident with the child I complete these two forms that remain within their file at the center. So every accident and incident that a child has is documented on paper and on computer in a system we use daily. Its the fact that I went to my boss to share my concerns of the behavior getting worse and nothing more has happened to help me as a teacher out for this child. It gets very frustrating as hell. I just want to be listened and heard regarding my concerns and feelings of the child's behavior.