The Real Me

I am officially done with the snow. I may be a New Englander who lives in Massachusetts, but I don't like so much snow in 3 weeks.

We have over 60 inches of snow. I am done with snow and shoveling, but I love living here and experiencing all four seasons.

Though it has not quite helped with inspiration for writing my Big Bang. I'm pushing myself and trying to write so many words a day or two.

Hopefully, I can get some more words tonight!!!

Well I'm in my sixth class in my Master's Degree Program and I've been doing a great job. I hate to put anything in someone's face or be con-seeded in any means, but I have been doing really well. 5 Classes taken and received an A in each class. Currently in my sixth class and currently have an A, but that can always change. I work really hard to achieve the grades I have worked hard for and earned. Though APA style is kicking my butt and driving my life crazy. There are so many rules to follow and I'm trying my best to make sure I follow them with accuracy. :/

My last paper I just got back my professor commented on the use of commas and semi-colons. I should read up on that before my next paper. And now my grammar is being picked a part - along with my in-text citations. I know its to help me in the long run but I feel I will never accomplish it. It brings me down (makes me cry) and I try so hard to give the professor the assignment they are asking and looking for. I will never give up but feel like all I can focus on is SCHOOL. I work 40 hours a week and come home and do homework for the rest of the time. I still need a time during this time to keep me sane.

It just makes me really wonder about my writing skills. Oh! I know, NEEDS HELP!!!! I complete makeover. In my school papers I need to remember to spell out all words and not to use slang language. Not that I do but still I need to write in a formal manner and I try my best and to cite in APA style appropriately. It is hard and now I have to work extra hours to make sure my assignments meet all standards before sending it in. I probably should really think about taking a grammar class because I feel like I have no clue on basic grammar. I love the comments and boost to make my next paper even better and I will always strive for this. I had to email my professor and re-send her an assignment, claiming I never completed it, which I did. I explained that the word document had 2 pages and the part she was looking for was on the second page. I sent the document in 2 different ways for her to get it that I did complete the assignment.

Trust me - who will want to read this again. Who wants to hear me complain about WRITING. LOL. Not many will. I don't blame them to be honest.

Anyway, it makes me wonder why should I continue writing in Fandom. I know my stories need lots of work and the stories don't seem to catch a readers eye. I wrote a story for a secret Santa challenge and my giftee liked it. No one knows how it felt that she liked it, truly liked it and thanked me for writing it for her. I have to say, I'm damn fucking proud of this story. The emotional ride I went through pushed me to complete it and write the story I wanted to share. I'm really nervous about writing and sharing more stories for Fandom. I really do enjoy it, but I have so much to learn. I'm excited to work on my newest story and I hope it goes well. I'm not sure I will be able to pull it off but willing to take chances and risks. I know people have told me to 'keep on writing' and to 'practice practice practice' but its hard when you have no natural talent or the ability of creative expression. Anyway now that the tears have dried I will always continue to strive to do better and achieve my goals.

You are super-sweet, committed to improving yourself and the lives of the people around you, interested in and engaged with the world, and always, always trying your very best. You're a true inspiration! Happy holidays and big, fangirly *hugs* to you!
To whom ever you are - Thank you for the sweet, kind, and inspirational words. Happy Holidays to you and I return the fangirly *hug* your way!!


From my new friend - apocalipskiss - Hey, thanks for being there for me. You're a sweetheart! I love you, and wish you have a wonderful holiday season! <3
I'm always here for you!!! Love you too!!! I wish you a wonderful holiday season and new year coming your way!!!


From my dear friend - deanshot - My dear wonderful friend, you are a lovely, generous, amazing person, who continues to amaze me with the strength within you. Your determination to succeed and to grow astounds me.

I hope you have a wonderful happy holiday season. ♥
My dear friend, thank you so much for the kind and amazing words. They brighten my day more then you can ever know!! Love you!! I wish you a wonderful holiday season and a great new year coming your way!!! <3


Oh you sweetie pie, I'm so glad you are staying positive and making such a great effort at writing. Keep going!
To whom ever you are, I will keep working on my writing, stay positive, and be proud of the progress I'm making, no matter how big or small the accomplishment might be. Thanks for the support!!!


You have such a great, beautiful ability to feel, give, and be kind. Your passion for learning and growing is also remarkable and admirable. Be proud :)
To whom ever you are - Thank you so much for the sweet, kind, and positive words to keep me going. Thanks for the support and I'm proud of my accomplishments, great and small :)

Note to Readers:

All my stories are MINE.

I’m asking that my stories are NOT shared on social-networking sites or other websites available to post stories.

I’m NOT allowing my stories to be translated into a different language.

I’m NOT allowing my stories to be changed in any way or form.

I’m NOT allowing someone to write a prequel, sequel, coda, or remix of any kind for my stories.

I’m NOT allowing my stories to be recced, UNLESS you ask ME for permission.

If MY wishes are NOT followed - I WILL take ACTION.

I saw this on frozen_delight page and I though it was a great idea!!! Let's spread some love and joy to others this holiday season!!!



Spread Holiday cheer by leaving thoughtful comments on fanworks of your choice all throughout the month of December.

Let’s face it: fanfic, fanart, fanvids – they take love, dedication and time to make and the creators don’t get paid for it. Fanartists’ payment comes in kudos, likes and – most importantly – comments. Comments lets the artist know what really worked and that they didn’t spend their time, energy and love for nothing.

So how about a little challenge? Give back this December, like a reverse advent calendar. Don’t just leave kudos, likes or whatever other sites offer. Leave at least one thoughtful, in-depth comment on a fanwork of your choice every day throughout December. Wouldn’t it be awesome if you managed that? Just imagine the artist flailing at hearing some well-intended praise for their story, artwork or video – and I can assure you that it will happen. Whether you finally comment on that old favorite of yours, or leave a comment on the work just published minutes ago, you’ll make a fanartist extremely happy.

And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt. ~ Sylvia Plath


I'm not a very good writer, but I'm an excellent rewriter. ~ James Michener


The time to begin writing an article is when you have finished it to your satisfaction. By that time you begin to clearly and logically perceive what it is you really want to say. ~ Mark Twain


I love being a writer. What I can't stand is the paperwork. ~ Peter De Vries


Every writer I know has trouble writing. ~ Joseph Heller


Writer's block is a disease for which there is no cure, only respite. ~ Terri Guillemets


When you are describing,
A shape, or sound, or tint;
Don't state the matter plainly,
But put it in a hint;
And learn to look at all things,
With a sort of mental squint.
~Lewis Carroll

I feel like an ass and who knows if anyone will help me out.

I could use some advice on keeping in-character of Sam and Dean.

I would love to hear what your thoughts are on the subject. I would love a list or any form really of your in-character Sam and Dean as well as out-of-character Sam and Dean.

The story I'm writing needs to be IN CHARACTER and its completely, OUT of character at the moment. Any advice and suggestions on keep in-character would be appreciated.